I swear I’m wrapping all this up and putting it all behind me. But I’m human and I have my weaknesses.

The day after telling Alan never to contact me and all the stuff outlined in my last post, I looked at his profile on Grindr and saw this:

I can’t help feeling like if all those things were true, it would be unnecessary to advertise it. Maybe that’s just me.

Seeing this literally made me laugh out loud.

I’m still sad and I still really feel sorry for him, but I know I’ve done everything I can do for him. There’s no hope and no point in continuing to want something that will never be. More than anything else, this photo serves as a reminder to me not to waste any more time on him.